selphie_t | 3 ♥ What a week... [voice; but quiet!]

3 ♥ What a week... [voice; but quiet!]

[To be frank, Selphie didn’t know what to feel. She feels like this has happened before but with different circumstances she can’t quite recall but the feeling of déjà vu is weighing heavily upon her shoulders. After the fighting and the fleeting feelings of panic were done running their course, Selphie merely sat down on the ground in the shadow of the rec centre. She knew that Ikki would find her sooner or later but for now, she needed to sort out her head.

She sat there for quite some time lost in thought. Having a family was amazing and she wouldn’t change a thing in the world for the time she got to spend with the people in her make-believe family. There was one little issue however that was churning inside her belly for quite some time. It was bringing up repressed memories of another time that she doesn’t want to think about. She went still as a statue, her eyes going wide in shock before her hands started to shake.

It was through sheer force of will that she managed to get them to stop. There was a turbulent storm brewing in her and she didn’t have much desire to be around a lot of people but knew that there were others who suffering far more than she was at that time. Childhood trauma aside, Selphie finally stands up and strides out into the light of the plaza with a look of resolution on her face. There were people she needed to find, others she needed to demand answers from and two particular grumps that she wanted to hug more than anything. She could lie down in the dark and have a pity party later on.

Right now. Right there and now, she knew she had to do something as she goes back into the daylight to help where she can. She’s not a recent High School grad working as a receptionist but a SeeD who has been neglecting her training a bit. There’s also the issue of her memories and something that she can’t shake no matter how much she tries to think that it’s all just a trick.

Still, there’s someone in particular that she needs to seek out. She’d borrowed Ikki’s journal for a couple days and had spent a fair amount of time listening to past entries hoping to jog her memory more than talking to people could ever do. All the friends she’d made and lost and some things she’d rather forget despite the shaky details on some of them. A couple of distinct things stand out to her though after going through Ikki’s journal.
It’s with these thoughts in mind that she takes to the journal. However, she keeps the volume down but cheerful none the less.]

Good morning Luceti!

It’s a nice day out don’t ya think?

[Or maybe not because nobody likes having their memories tampered with is what she’s thinking.]

Looks like a lot of things have happened since I was here last, huh? Sorry if I didn’t recognize anybody when I first got here but I think I’ll be all right now. Or… if I was too loud and clumsy.

You know how it is.

Anyway, a certain shameless flirt who knows who he is owes me ice cream. Good thing you work at a convenience store that used to be a pizza shop, right?

And yeah!

[Filtered to Frey.]

We need to talk. As soon as possible.

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So, I guess we're secret cousins now! At least we both like to read, right?

[ Pause. Hold on. That also might have been part of the Shift. ]

You do like to read, don't you?

[A week passes and Rudy is finally starting to feel like his old self again. It's really strange, though. He had a few friends in that "other" reality, but he could have sworn he saw a familiar face that'd gone home too. ... But who knows, maybe that was part of the illusion as well.

Of course, that assumption is quickly shattered once he opens his journal. Wait, what.]

Selphie?

[Hear that sound? That's the sound of pure dumbfoundedness. Someone had missed the memo on your return, it seems!]

Whoa, what shameless flirt?

[He might not be your Dad anymore and just see how much that stops him from acting like it.]

[Ikki never has to "find her", that would require for him to not know where she is, and short of cultists or Malnosso tampering with his memory and powers, Ikki always knows where she is. He can also make guesses on how she feels, and that's all that keeps him from going to her side right away. It's one of the side effects of being stuck in Luceti and coming to care about people, he eventually starts taking into account their own situation because if it was just about him he would have acted already, he would go and talk to everyone and make sure to crush any thoughts of knowing him they may have had. But now he takes time to go to them, and he doesn't approach them thinking on crushing those thoughts. Specially with Selphie, it would be impossible for him to do that now, he couldn't do it even when she didn't remember him after all.

It's only when she pushes herself away from her hiding place and makes a resolution that Ikki bothers to show up where she is talking to her journal. He merely sits besides her while Hyoga lays down in front of them, not bothering to ask for permission or even to announce himself. In fact he says nothing, which is typical in him when the situation is too emotional, he never knows for sure how to deal with those so he chooses to remain silent. All he does is sit there besides her and move an arm to wrap it around her waist, silent invitation for a hug or a talk or a punch or whatever she wants.]

[Selphie can't help but laugh at the silly question.]

I do actually! I didn't mind having a pony for a cousin.

[She ponders over the events of the past couple weeks because she's still not accustomed to having family.]

Think that book is here in Luceti?

That's me!

[She's trying to think of Rudy's name, trying to put a name to the voice that sounds far too familiar to be mere coincidence.]

But... I kinda forgot your name but we're definitely not lab partners. They wouldn't let me take chemistry because they were afraid of me blowing up the lab!

Well... I'd only blow it up a little bit but that's a minor detail!

[Selphie pauses at Smoker's voice. She just can't help it, there's too many conflicting emotions. Smoker's more than a friend now, someone more than someone she knows will always have her back.

He's family now, just like Ikki.]

Hey Da--

[She laughs at her slip up to hide that pang of longing for something she's always wanted.]

Oh, nobody Smoker! That's why he knows who he is and why he owes me ice cream.

[Selphie had a feeling that Ikki wouldn't be too far away from her. The arm wrapping around her waist however catches her off guard, has her almost kicking Hyoga before she looks up and let's the tension drain out of her.]

Jeez you two scared me!

[She eventually leans against him for a bit, her hands resting on top of the open journal.]

It's not the first time this has happened is it?

A little bit?

[That is not reassuring, Selphie. Still, if she's back it'd make sense if not all of her memories returned, wouldn't it?]

It's me, Rudy. We, um... met once before.

[He just rolls his eyes. Whatever, she will get used to it again sooner or later, and he's not going to apologize. It's not his fault she can't keep an eye on her surroundings and know who is wrapping an arm around her.]

What are you talking about? Us scaring you, sitting here like this, having our minds played with or given a fake life and family?

[He makes a differentiation between having their minds played with and being given different memories, after all there are more times their minds and hearts are played with that don't involve playing house.]

No.

[Round and firm negative, for all of the things he said.]

We have? Hold on just a sec!

[Rudy might hear the events of their first encounter being played in the background before she comes back to her own journal.]

Oh! That's how we met...

Uh... whoopsies?

[She frowns at his eye rolling, knowing that he has no intentions of apologizing before wondering about what actually scares her more.]

Part of me is still feeling like that Selphie. That's not me at all so you caught me off guard is all.

[Her face takes on a pained look before her fists are balling and slamming against the book underneath them. She feels like a sitting duck inside Luceti and that's a feeling that she can't stand. She doesn't know what's going to happen next and that's another feeling that doesn't sit well with her. In the end, she lets out a slow breath in an attempt to centre herself.]

Right.

[Still feeling like that Selphie. Like the girl she was during that brainwashing invasion. If he allowed himself to be more honest with his own emotions on a regular basis, he would be able to relate. As it is, though, he's too used to throw back everything he doesn't need at the moment and drag it around without ever turning back to glance at it. He doesn't feel like that Ikki at all. And any need he may feel to contact those who had been his family, at least once, is just to show them who he really is. Whatever may happen after that, he convinces himself that he doesn't care about it.]

Guess it's too much to ask for the Malnosso to be competent at least once and do a proper wipe. With how much they love to play with our minds I would have expected them to be more efficient at this.

[He hugs her a bit more tightly, trying to comfort her, to show that he's there. He understands her, and what she's feeling, he knows it well, the initial feeling of being a sitting duck, the realization of being nothing, but a toy in the hands of people who have less morals and common sense than a kid. He doesn't tell her that she will get used to it, or at least that she will be feeling it so much that at the end it will reach a point in which it doesn't affect her anymore, because she has reached the limit and all she can do is to sit and wait for her chance to explode and take her revenge. It's pointless to tell her, after all.]

I don't suppose coming with me to the Battle Dome and smash some heads will help, right?

[Part of her understands without him even having to say a word, nodding at his comments about the Malnosso. She needs to focus on the here and now, do what she can to help those who need it. There's quite a bit that Selphie can deal with but it's nice knowing that at least there's somebody who understands. As she looks up at Ikki with a knowing grin and nods a bit.]

Kicking ass and taking names? Ikki, I never would've thought you to be that type.

What did you expect me to do? Sit in a flower field and make flower crowns?

[He... May have done that. With Kotomi. But Selphie doesn't know and doesn't remember. And if she does he will make her forget!]

[Said flatly:] I think I'd take you to a doctor if you were doing that.

[They got around to talking to each briefly before she disappeared from Luceti but sadly, they never got around to telling each other their names. Nothing was mentioned about Ikki however, so what's not remembered is best left forgotten.]

Hn. If I was in your place I would have taken the killing route because I would think it's an impostor, but I suppose that works just as well.

[It's hard to say how serious he is with that. Then again, when Marco returned in a state different from his normal one, he still acted like himself, just angrier and rougher. Ikki sitting in a flower field and making flower crowns after the Malnosso mess up with his mind and he's conscious of it definitively sounds like an impostor to him.]

Didn't get to ask, was the journal useful?

Okay! So if that happens, I'll just crack you upside the head, hopefully rendering you unconscious before finding somebody to help me drag you off to the clinic. Got it!

[Yay change of topic. She remembers quite a bit more than when she first arrived but there are still large gaps that only the voices of the other people she'd gotten to know could possibly hope to fill. She smiles softly in response.]

It helped quite a lot. Thanks for letting me borrow it.

We do?

[He had a sinking feeling what this might be about, from her tone....]

We do. We really, really do.

About....?

[If she remembered, he'd tell her. If not.....]

About our friendship.

[She remembers enough to let her guard down.]

I don't remember all of it but enough to know that we've been through a lot together.

....So you do remember.

[His tone eases up a bit, a statement more than anything. This had happened before, but.. he knew enough about how poorly people could react to sudden introductions and hearing that someone here knew them when they did not.

His rocky start with Aleos still lingered in his mind.]

Edited 2013-09-02 19:36 (UTC)

Yep! So spill the beans, Frey. All of the beans.

I didn't know if telling you if you did not remember... and might not remember, would be wise. [An apology of sorts.]

We've known each other since my first few months in Luceti. There are quite a few beans to spill, so to speak.

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